Constant Readers

Wow.  It's been so long since the last time I put up a real post that I'm not sure I know how to do it anymore.  I feel like I've let so much time go by that now all of the thoughts I've had over these past 8 months or so have flown right out of my head.  Or maybe they're all in there, but so jumbled up that I'll never be able to make sense of them again.

No matter really, as I've lost my .com and no one knows I've gone back to blogspot.  No matter really, because I've probably lost all of my followers by now as well.  I know that when I was actively blogging, if someone went months on end without posting, I removed them from my blog roll.  So, fair's fair and all that crap.

I've missed all of you... my Constant Readers (stealing that one from the great Stephen King), and I've missed the sense of community and extended family that blogging brought to me.  Most of all, I miss SHARING with all of you.

Something happened to me all those months ago, something that took away my ability to share, to write, to express myself.  I have no earthly idea what that something was, but it happened just the same.  One day I could tell a story and get a few giggles out of you, the next day... gone.

I'm sure that a whole lot has happened in my life in the past 8 months, but unfortunately, it's all a fog for me right now.  I'm still here, sitting in the bitch cave like always.  Jill is still my very best friend.  My family still makes me laugh and cry.  My girls are still wonderful and growing fast.  But I'M different.  I wish I could explain how, but I don't know myself.

I want to be a blogger again... I just don't know if I can.  It's a fairly sucky thing when you lose one of the only things you were halfway good at.

I shit you not.